I have been in a funk the last couple of weeks.  I’d felt so compelled to “strike while the iron was hot” with my writing, that I lost my focus.  I was in high gear and felt the need for speed, but sometimes I just need to slow down and remember that I am not the one in control here…

I’d been praying for inspiration and guidance, yet wasn’t receiving any.  Perhaps a sign that I am wanting to move faster than God, but that’s just not possible.  If I jump ahead, He will certainly pull me back to where I belong.  If I attempt to go ahead without Him, it will just be like an empty, lifeless desert.  Devoid of meaning.

I am realizing I need to wait until God places something on my heart.  It’s nothing I can force.  When I try is when He becomes silent.  It’s like a lesson of sorts, testing to see if I am trying to speak on my own authority, which is the last thing I want to do.  My words mean nothing without His power behind them.

And I’ve seen, it’s easy to become distracted when things go silent.  It’s important to take a step back and refocus if you feel yourself starting to drift.  It’s like that saying, “If you feel far from God, guess who moved?”  He is constant and unchanging, which is so very different from our wavering minds.

Wherever I am being taken in life, it’s in His timing, not my own.  Being patient as a human being is hard.  We are naturally driven to do things in our own power.  It is only through the Holy Spirit that we can learn to patiently wait on the Lord.  He always knows what is best.

Earlier today, I finally heard something.  His words were simply to “write what you know”.  Nothing more, nothing less.  God gives us all different experiences in life so that we can share them with others.  My part here is just to share the ones I’ve had and how God has been there through it all.  He will be glorified by it, not me.

So, I know that things have been silent for the last couple of weeks.  I know that I am waiting upon further instruction.  I know that I need to have more patience and stay more focused.  I know that the Lord will guide me where to go next.  I just need to keep the lines of communication open.  I will not go out on my own and write empty words to try and rush things along.

Maybe things will come in waves.  Maybe there will be dry spells.  Whatever the case, I will simply write what I can when He guides me to do so.  What I know right now is that it’s out of my control, and that’s exactly the way it should be.